I never imagined this day to come but it has. Stella has willingly given up her pacifiers.
Stella was one of those kids who took to the pacifier immediately. She left the hospital that she was born in expertly sucking on one. All those who have seen her regularly know that she turns to them for solace in moments of distress or fatigue. Over the past year or so, I have tried to wean her being semi-successful in getting her paci-usage down to nap/sleep time.
When our move came around, we had unsuccessfully attempted to tell her that there were no pacis in Chicago. Yeah, I know, way to go...make her deal with a major life-altering event by adding another. She rewarded this with a figurative heisman by demanding two pacis; one in her mouth and the other in her hand strumming the rubber part with her forefinger.
Last week our neighbor's kids, Avery and Braydon (about 2 1/2 yrs), had talked about throwing their pacis in the garbage truck. Stella did not participate in this discussion for the first couple of days seemingly unwilling to part with her lifelines. I figure she dismissed them as being so young and naive. By day three, she jumped on the bandwagon.
Today, on our way into our garage, we saw a garbage truck. I calmly asked Stella if she wanted to throw her pacis in the garbage truck (expecting an adamant "No, are you crazy?!?!" as it was encroaching on nap time).
She said yes.
I ran like a bat out of hell up to get them from the kitchen. As we approached the truck, she asked to be picked up. I braced myself for her to change her mind. It never came...

And just like that, gone was the first as she flung it beautifully into the back of the garbage truck. At this point, I held my breath wondering if she would stop there upon seeing the finality of the situation. Nope, not my brave girl. She threw in the second.
She missed.
It took 2 more tries and eventually, with much baited breath on my part, paci #2 successfully met its demise. We watched as the garbage truck crushed them. I gushed as to how proud I was, high fives were exchanged with the group (Avery & Braydon were there too to do the deed).
We had difficulty during nap time. She was fussy but did not mention the pacis. She replaced this with wanting her daddy. She understands the finality of this and is courageously dealing. She makes me feel weak. I am so proud of her.
I spent all day to make sure she got everything she needed desperate to prevent her from having any uncomfortable moments trying not to tip the scale. I am exhausted. Dylan forgives me for neglecting him. I am brimming with pride for her.
I am expecting the next few days to be pretty challenging. Nothing compared to the great feat that my little girl has accomplished.
I wish I can slow down time. Too fast, too soon, too much but so freaking awesome!